I just finished watching the movie Pay it Forward. I have always loved the message that this movie delivers and I’ve probably see it a half dozen times since it’s release. The idea that people could actually “pay it forward” is revitilizing in a world that oftens leaves us feeling hopeless it will ever be “better”. I have to admit that this was my first time watching this movie since I became a mother and let me tell you it definitely carried a whole new variety of emotions. Previously I was very moved, cried a little and felt sad at various points but this time I found myself near sobbing and I’m pretty sure it had to do with the idea of losing a child. I think that it will be far too difficult going forward to watch these types of movies, the same way that is hard to read about a child suffering from cancer, or hear about a student in a highschool getting shot or stabbed – somehow suddenly I have a far more rooted connection to these stories. I wonder if I’ll be equally as moved the next time I watch The Little Mermaid and King Triton lets Ariel stay a human. What movies are safe to watch to avoid the sob fest? Only experimentation will work!