The Mind is a Sponge

Jacob has learned how to spell his name!  I can’t believe that he can do this already and it came as a total shock to me.  The other day I asked him out of the blue how he spelled his name and he just out right spelled out each letter one by one.  I guess that he’s picked up on our times at the chalkboard when we’ll spell out his name with chalk and then read each letter to him!  Now (as you’ll see in the video) he spells it out for us and we write each letter after he has said them!  He’s such a chatterbox these days and lately he’s been asking us how to spell Mommy and Daddy so I think today when Mike took this video he was trying to help Jacob learn to spell Daddy….

Stop Screwing With Me Summer!

Yesterday when I took Jacob to his usual Tuesday swim class he remarked that it was “a little bit cold mama” to which I replied that it was in fact a little bit cold today.  I marveled at this out of sorts weather and somewhat wished that it would stay for the remaining duration of the summer but alas come mid-afternoon the raging heat and humidity was back to torment.  Last night when we were outside at the park I noticed that the air had a nice breeze to it and while it was still warm the nasty humidity seemed to be lacking and again I secretly wished that perhaps a bit of this autumn flavour was going to stick around.  This morning when I got out of my house it was so cold that I probably should have had a jacket but I didn’t have time to run back in and get one and for the third time in two days I prayed that the weather would stay; the weather report for the day calls for high temperatures and high humidity *sigh*  I guess all a girl can do is hope that the cool weather is around the corner waiting for me.  I just wish the summer would stop screwing with me and decide if it wants to stay hot until October like last year or bring in the cool autumn feel a little sooner then later.

16 Weeks Pregnant!

Yup!  It’s true… Today I am officially 16 weeks pregnant!  I’d say that time is going by fast but I know that the moment I get serious about those thoughts the time will seem to drag on and on and on!  So for now I’ll just say that I’m happy to be starting to feel a bit better overall.  16 weeks means 4 months pregnant which is awesome! Before I know it we’ll be all caught up in the activities of fall and winter and it will be the new year!  I’ve been trying to put a lot of thought into when the right time would be to leave work and I’d definitely like to make it past Christmas and into the new year so that I can get as much time off with my bambino as possible.  I’m still covinced I will not be having this baby in February (February 2nd is my official by the books due date that I am still doubting) and I’m certain I’ll end up with a January baby.

This week the baby is as big as an avocado….

It’s kind of silly to think that the baby last week was as big as an orange and most times I see oranges that are bigger then avocado’s so I’m guessing they are doing this estimate based on the length across the fruit instead of the circumference around it!  I continue to look forward to some of the things that are coming our way with this pregnancy like feeling those first real kicks which I’m hoping will happen earlier this time since I have a posterior placenta and I know what I’m looking for!  I’m happy to say that our place is slowly but surely getting organized to prepare for the new addition in case we are not able to move before they make their grand entry into our lives!

There really isn’t much going on in new baby world these days!  We have no appointments until September 11th and 12th and then after that we wont’ be seen until around Thanksgiving time (October 12, 13, etc.) so I’m really loving the laid back, less stress free go at this pregnancy and I really think my health is going to thank me for it at the end of the delivery!  Today I’m off to get some new underwear because the past couple of days my underwear have seemed a bit on the small side…hmph..Still haven’t gained any weight but the belly is growing out so I need to get some new “drawers”…So there you have it folks!  16 weeks and counting!  Before you know it we’ll be 20 weeks along and half way towards meeting our new family member!

New Fall Clothes

For the first time ever *gasp* it is just 2 weeks until September and Jacob does not have a stitch of fall clothing in his room so we were out and about yesterday looking for new clothes!  The biggest problem is sizing of course because we’d like most of his clothes to make it through the fall, winter and spring if possible but it’s so difficult when you are not a fan of too big clothing.  They were having a sale at The Gap of buy one pair of jeans get the second pair for 50% off so we snagged up two different pairs in size 2T!  In addition at the gap we got him a pair of navy blue cords (and I’m still debating going back for a pair of grey or brown cords), a pair of track pants and hoodie, and a blue and red long sleeved t-shirt.  We got the navy blue cords in size 2T and the track pants in size 18-24 months because track pants always seem to run long and large on my child…the hoodie was size 2T and the t-shirt was size 3T.  All of the size 2T pants fit well with room to grow in the waist (they have an adjustable waist) and about 1-2 inches of extra length and since I dont’ have a problem cuffing jeans we’ll keep them…the cords and track pants fit nice also.  The hoodie is a good fit and should last at least until Christmas but the 3T t-shirt is really big on him…Mike wants me to keep it because he says it will fit all the way until spring that way so I guess we’re going to just live with it despite my hatred for too big clothing.

Today we’re hoping to stop by old navy to see what they’ve got kicking around in terms of fall clothing and what I’m really hoping to find somewhere is a fall coat of some sort.  We’ll need to stock up on some new socks and a pair of sneakers when we get around to it too.  On Thursday a new pirate comes out at Gymboree and well frankly I haven’t shopped at gymboree since god knows when but the pirate stuff looks really cute so I’m going to get some of their t-shirts to pair with his jeans that I got from gap….oh shoot that reminds me I wanted to go back to gap to get a pair of black jeans…they should go well with the pirate stuff I suspect!

When the winter arrives Jacob will need a coat and snow pants plus a new pair of boots and the usual hat, mittens and scarf!  Luckily I dont have to think about that for a while so for now I’m focused on building a fall wardrobe that is of reasonable quantity instead of my usual over the top shopping trips!  I think I’m doing very well so far!

Verbal Regurgitation

I’m in a crappy mood today despite waking up in a tremendously good mood.  The day thus far has not progressed as I had hoped it would and I find myself full of moans and groans about things that just have been irking me.  If you’ve been stalking reading my blog at all since it began you will probably note that I am not one to complain or whine about things going in my life and I’d rather focus on what’s good and enlightening at the moment, however today I think I’m going to take a step outside of normal and visit the abnormal for a moment or two if you don’t mind.

First of all, Mike installed this little baby growth widgit thing on the sidebar of my blog.  Can you see it?  It’s basically a little baby floating around in a globe that grows as each day progresses in your pregnancy.  I’ve got to admit I thought it was kind of cute at first until one day I realized the thing has a really big long umbilical cord that often times looks like a giant penis protruding from between the baby’s legs and when it catches me completely by surprise it even looks like it’s going up into the baby’s mouth.  It is completely FREAKING me out people….seriously, it is the creepiest thing I’ve seen in a while.  Sadly, I’m too much of a bleeding heart and far too superstitious to remove the baby now, so globe baby will have to stay for the time being.

The next bit of news I’m not even sure how to process really but I’m trying to wrap my head around it in a way that makes sense to my pregnant exhausted brain.  I heard via telephone from my father the other day that he is dying and that he wants to have a meeting with my mother, my brother and myself.  Now, for those of you who don’t know me I will give you a bit of background information so that this all makes sense to you.  My mother and father are divorced and have been for a lot of years (actually most of my life), anyways my father and I had a disconnected relationship for most of my life and have really been getting to know each other and growing closer since I became pregnant with my son….my mother and father tolerate each other when they “have” to be around one another because of something that has to do with my son i.e birthday, baptism, etc.  So, I have to believe that my father is being serious when he says that he needs a meeting with my mother, brother and I because it’s just not his typical behavior to ask to hang out with my mom for a bit.  Unfortunately, my father wasn’t willing to give any information over the phone but eventually my brother was able to get some information out of him and I guess what it is boiling down to is that my father is dying and is expected to live no longer then 2 years.  I don’t know what he is dying of or why whatever illness is occurring can’t be fixed but I guess I won’t know more until we have this face to face meeting that he wants to have. Truthfully, I don’t know how to process this information exactly because I’m someone who needs to have ALL of the facts before making decisions about how I feel about something…that being said  I would definitely not be happy if my dad was truly dying.  When I was pregnant with Jacob, my grandmother got leukemia and nobody wanted to give me updates or information about her for fear that it might stress me out or cause me to go into labour or something crazy like that so this time I am putting my foot down and demanding that I know and understand everything that is going on at all times.

I guess the last thing that is really going on for me is how tired I continue to be during this second trimester of pregnancy.  I have to admit that I really have narrowed down the culprit and I’m sad to say that it’s definitely my work schedule.  I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again but I really have always been and continue to be very fond of my job and the people I work with; the work we do with teenagers is really outstanding if you ask me.  What’s difficult is how shift work plays into being pregnant and having a toddler at home….for example on many nights I work until 11:30 pm or 12am and don’t get home until 1am!!  Of course by the time I settle into bed it’s after 1am and Jacob is up bright and early at 6-630 am the next day.  I’m literally surviving pregnancy with 5-6 hours of sleep per night which is usually broken up by at least two late night bathroom visits.  *sigh*  I am continuing to trudge through the difficult hours but I’ve got to say that I am eagerly awaiting my August/September vacation.  4 more shifts and I’m off work for 2 whole weeks!  I just want to give a shout out to Connie at work who has been generously giving me drives all the way home from work on the nights that I work with her!  God bless you Connie!  I can’t believe at all that she does this for me despite the fact that she lives just 5 minutes away by car and I live a half hour drive to my place and a half hour drive back to hers!  I think I’ll have to reward her with a lunch out one day or some Tim Horton’s gift cards!

Lastly, I’d like to take a moment to groan about heartburn!  Oh yes!  I have had heartburn pretty much since the day I found out I was pregnant and nothing, absolutely nothing seems to be helping it go away.  I am pretty much destined to fight this crappy feeling until the baby makes its appearance I think!  ugg.

There you have it folks….those are my gripes. I feel better now so I suppose I will get off my worn and tattered soap box!

First Pair of Hockey Skates

Yesterday Jacob’s Nana and Papa came by with a special gift for Jacob…His first ever pair of hockey skates!  I thought they were so cute and I didn’t even realize they made hockey skates that small!  Jacob is going to be taking guardian and tot learn to skate lessons this fall with his Papa in preparation for playing hockey when he is 4 years old.  I’m really excited about the skating lessons because I just think he’ll have so much fun on the ice with Papa!  Last night Papa tried the skates on Jacob’s feet so that they could make sure they got an ideal fit and it looks like they are going to work perfectly! We tried to stand Jacob up in the skates but of course they are not sharpened yet so they just basically slid all over our hardwood floor…it was actually pretty funny to watch!  Jacob was laughing because he probably thought it a whole lot of fun!  Skating registration is coming up in September and classes start in October..all Jacob needs now is a CSA Approved Hockey Helmet to wear to lessons and he’s all set!!  I can’t wait to watch him have his first experience on the ice and in a pair of skates!

Appointment Updates

Just popping in to give an update of our appointments today….

We had our ultrasound appointment at 9am and for the first time ever we didn’t have to wait 45 minutes for our turn! We literally sat down for like 2 minutes before they called my name. I’ve had the same technician for the past 3 times because it’s more difficult to scan me with my weight and the shape of my uterus. It seemed like forever that she was taking measurements and I kepting hearing her say words like femur length, nasal bone, cerebellum, humerus, spine, etc. Finally I heard her say HEARTBEAT and all my fears about not finding the baby on the doppler were resolved! I think she heard me sigh from relief because she said “yup heartbeat is 158!” so then I was able to relax a bit and she got to the rest of the measurements. I told her about a dream I had where the baby didn’t have a skull and she told me oh this baby has a nice round skull Melissa, no worries and even turned the screen to show me! When she called Mike in we finally got to see the baby….the baby is laying transverse facing up to my stomach with it’s head on my right side. We saw it’s face and little hands moving all around….and of course the pics were all sort of foggy so we didn’t bother paying for them (they are not free at our clinic)…I’m sure we’ll get some cute pics as the baby gets bigger. I go back for another scan on September 11th at 9am…I hope I get the same technician again! I really like her!

We had an hour to kill before my OB appointment so we went to get something to eat in between and then we were off to the OB’s office where I had an anxiety attack in his waiting room. I was just sitting there and remembering the rude comments from some of the medical staff at the hospital during my son’s delivery and suddenly I was so overwhelmed that I was doing it all over again and in the same place. After a few tears I was able to catch my breath and wait for the doctor to call me in. I sat with the doctor and told him about all my concerns with the way I was treated by some of the medical professionals (not him, I love him but he didn’t deliver me due to how their on call thing works)….I mentionned the comments from the medical team and he actually said he was really very sorry that this happened and that he actually had an idea of who it was. Wow, someone on that medical team has a history. He said he wished I would have told him during my post natal appointment because he does not tolerate that kind of ignorance and he told me that if anybody at any point in this pregnancy makes any kind of rude comment he wants me to tell him…even if its just a lady drawing my blood labs..he didn’t care he wanted to know. It was such a relief to hear these comments from him…..

Then we talked about options for delivery and basically he felt we had three choices to chose from. He said if we encountered any problems like in my pregnancy with Jacob that resulted in the baby needing to be delivered there would be no choice it would be an automatic c-section, the second option was that I could have a scheduled c-section, and the third option was that if everythign progressed as normal and pitocin wasn’t necessary I could attempt a VBAC which he said has a 60% chance of success. The doctor told us we didn’t have to make any decisions now and that we could take things one day at a time and talk about it when we felt it was time to talk about it. The doctor and I talked about the problems that happened in my pregnancy with Jacob around having very little amniotic fluid and he was concerned because my placenta was not sent off to pathology after my delivery with him…I did not have gestational diabetes, nor did I have high blood pressure so he was very curious about what would cause the problem….In the end he wants to do some blood work for some anticoagulent stuff to see if there is somethign going on with me that might have caused the problem last time and as we get closer to where the problems started with Jacob (32 weeks) he wants to start monitoring me closely.

We did my weight and it seems I’ve lost 17 pounds in total since June…He said that i absolutely need to find a way to not lose any more weight….he said even if you stay the same that is ok and gain up to 15 pounds but absolutely the weight loss needs to stop….so I guess I need to figure out how to make that happen since I’m not trying to lose weight…LOL. I have low iron which needs to be addressed by putting more iron rich foods into my body…he told me that the baby is going to leech everything from me that it needs to I need to get the extra iron in for myself so that I can feel good – which would explain why I’m still so freaking exhausted at 15 weeks pregnant. My blood pressure was 128 over 90 which was pretty good if you ask me for someone who just had an anxiety attack in his waiting room. LOL. I am doing shared care with my family doctor so I will see her in September and then see my OB again in October at around 24 weeks.

15 Weeks Pregnant

It’s Monday again and I am now officially 15 weeks pregnant and I’m really relieved to see that so far this pregnancy is going a lot faster then Jacob’s which I think has a lot to do with just how busy I’ve been since finding out I was pregnant nearly 11 weeks ago now.   I’ve had a lot more anxiety this past week about the pregnancy which I think has a lot to do with my appointments tomorrow and if I can recall correctly I think when I was pregnant with Jacob I would get anxious before every appointment!  I’ve really been burning the candle at both ends so to speak for the past three weeks because I’ve been working mostly night shifts at work and not getting hom until 12:30 am which sucks when you have a toddler that wakes up before 7am every day!  As you’ve read in my blog the past couple of days I am very excited about my upcoming two weeks off and I only have 7 more shifts (after tonight) until that arrives!  Sweet!

This week the baby is as big as an ORANGE….

I’ve got to say I really love these comparisons to the size of the baby and I can’t wait for the day when I post the picture of the great big watermelon!!  I think that one obviously comes at the 9 month mark!  Ha! This week the baby is growing eyebrows and eyelashes as well as finger and toe nails!  Cute!

I guess I don’t have much to say about this past week of being pregnant except that I’ve been really tired and craving some time off of work – which you alread knew!  Tomorrow I have an ultrasound and my first OB appointment where I plan and hope to talk to him about some of my concerns from my last delivery!  Keep yoru fingers crossed that everything goes well!!

Bedroom Furniture Possibilities

Since a new baby is on the way and we want to use Jacob’s crib for that baby and since he’s comfortably sleeping in a toddler bed we’ve decided to start investigating furniture options for him.  Here’s what I’ve been liking from IKEA…

Bed Frame

Dresser

With this bookshelf turned on it’s side with some baskets for toys and some open squares for books..

And this bedside table possibly…

I really like this set and its relatively decent in price.  I’m hunting high and low for the perfect bedding set and hoping to incorporate the current theme in his room of trains planes and automobiles…so we’ll see what I am able to locate!  Oh and of course he’ll need a new mattress too!