Today I’m officially 31 weeks pregnant and I’ve got to say so much has changed in just one short day! I’ve been trying to wrap my head around my doctor’s appointment for the past few hours and I think I’m really in a state of shock at how fast your plans for child birth can change.
I am feeling really achy this week in my back and pelvic area which I am sure has to do with the fact that in the past couple of weeks the baby has started to really grow and of course I’m sure the move had a lot to do with it too. It’s not unmanageable pain by any means and as I’ve said in previous posts its just all par for the course of pregnancy so it is nothing unexpected. I continue to have heartburn in the evenings and the occasional bout of nausea when I can feel the baby in my upper stomach but I’ve been managing and truthfully can’t complain. The biggest difficulty right now is that I continue to have difficulty sleeping at night but usually if I am able to find time for a nap mid-afternoon I am able to get 2 hours of solid sleep based upon how long Jacob sleeps. I know the sleep situation is only going to get worse as the pregnancy progresses and that once the baby comes I’ll be sleeping a lot less too so once again…I can’t complain right? So much more could be going wrong and the fact that everything seems a-ok means I don’t have the right to complain!
Today was my 31 week appointment with my OB/GYN and it was so bizarre….his thoughts on my VBAC had totally changed since the previous appointment 3 weeks ago. Apparently, he got the NICU discharge papers from Jacob’s stay and he feels that it’s too risky to attempt a VBAC. The note from the NICU says that Jacob’s facial fractures and respiratory problems were the result of Cephalic-Pelvic Disproportion….which I guess means baby is too big for the pelvic bone. I had already researched this since I had heard that many times it’s not really true that they just say that to convince you to take the c-section…so I questionned my OB about it and he felt that after 96 hours of labor and being unable to progress past 7 cm dilated that it was probably the case that I had “true” cephalic-pelvic disproportion so he measured my pelvic bone and felt that I had a really small one and since we are not “yet” having fluid problems like we had with Jacob he feels that this baby will be bigger then 6 pounds….so he doesn’t feel its safe for baby to proceed with a VBAC…..
I’ve got to admit I was kind of shocked….he seemed so on board with it last appointment but I am definitely able to see where he is coming from….I am just coming to terms with the fact that things won’t go according to my plan I guess. I know this hospital is VERY pro VBAC so I don’t feel he is trying to con me into it because I am very clear on his opinion that he always feels mom’s should attempt a VBAC if possible….I just want the baby to be ok and not have the same problems as Jacob so I understand the need for the c-section….I’m just needing a few hours to feel sorry for myself that I’ll have to have the longer recovery again…my hope is to be out of the hospital in 3 days this time instead of 6 days. I admit that I did have a remarkably easy recovery from my c-section last time and the only reason I stayed in hospital is because Jacob was there.
So, unless we start having any mysterious fluid problems like I did with Jacob that causes the baby to come earlier…..the baby will be born on January 20th at 1130am. It’s kind of freaky to know the exact date and time that you are scheduled to go in……
I’m really scared about the spinal and going through this whole c-section experience again….last time I had my epidural wear off mid section and it was the most excruciating pain I’d ever experienced in my whole life…..and as a result I’m sure I have a bit of PTSD…please pray for me that everything will go smoothly and I’ll be able to make it through complication free….and a prayer for peace of mind wouldn’t be so horrible too…
Other then all of that….my BP was good, urine was good, and I had gained one more pound….at my growth ultrasound last week baby girl was measuring a few days ahead this time, instead of right on target. In the next couple of weeks I’ll be starting to have weekly bio-physical profile ultrasounds as I expected to measure the fluid levels of the baby and make sure everything is comfy cozy in the womb. I have come to terms with the idea of a repeat c-section because in the end a healthy baby is what I want and the goal of this pregnancy has always been healthy mommy and healthy baby…I would be selfish to think that this whole experience was about me.
There you have it folks….this has perhaps been the most eventful week of pregnancy for me but still nothing too crazy or over the top! At this point in my pregnancy with Jacob I had been to labor and delivery twice already and we’re sitting at zero visits this time!