I Miss Him

I’m working hard to find a balance of time between the two children but these days it’s really really hard. With Violet’s growth struggles and our current breast feeding, pumping, supplementing plan I’m finding that I really really miss my wee man. It’s not that he’s far away because in actual reality he’s right here next to me for most of the day but what I miss is being able to snuggle with him whenever we want to, to act silly with him and watch Super Why together….now it seems that when Super Why is on I am engrossed in the feeding regimen with Violet and before I know it the show is over. Twice in the past couple of weeks Jacob has gone upstairs and put himself down for a nap and I’m trying to decide if its because he was really tired or just because he was bored of not having Mommy time. We’re still trying to work things out with Violet around what method of feeding her will work best for our family or more specifically Violet and myself but I’m committed to working on finding more time with Jacob too….I think I’m planning to bake cookies and cupcakes with him on Friday for Valentines Day as this is something that we have always enjoyed doing together. I find myself trying to do too many things at once as though I’m trying to squeeze in time for everything that needs to get done….just today I was rocking Violet in her bouncy chair, while doing a puzzle with Jacob and folding laundry. Insane! I miss him so much that it makes me ache some days and I wonder if he misses me too…he’s just growing up too fast and I think these pictures prove what a big little man he’s becoming.



3 thoughts on “I Miss Him

  1. He’s such an adorable boy! Don’t worry. Everything will work out and you will have a new normal that includes plenty of attention to both kids. IME, though, it does take a few months to really get in the groove. The older children don’t suffer for it, especially when they have such a great Mommy that cares so much she makes sure to make time for them.

  2. I totally understand how you feel.. I think it’s one of the reason I failed so badly at breastfeeding this time around!! It does get better an easier though… Especially around this time with the kiddos start playing together! It’s becoming easier and easier to play with BOTH at the same time!

  3. ((hugs!)) It will get better! I think it was about 2 months before we finally got into a good routine and I was able to feel like I was spending good time with each of them every day, consistently. In the meantime he’s learning valuable lessons such as patience and sharing. And the time he does get is more appreciated by him too, I bet. Planning activities in advance such as baking cupcakes is definitely a great idea. Hang in there, you’re doing great!!

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